Yes, I missed my Monday post. My weight was up .8lbs, which I didn't think was so bad. I'm thinking this Monday to come it will be up a whole 8lbs. Here's why.....
Last week was my birthday week and I really didn't feel like celebrating. For a lot of reasons. So the week & few days before my birthday (figure about 10 days) I hit the processed foods hard. Chips. Love them. Saturday I had a wedding to go to, which was lovely. The wedding & reception itself was lovely but there was a lot of cheese which was also lovely. Yummy, delicious salty cheese. It's pretty much what I ate the whole time. I like cheese, what can I say. I've been bloated from my food choices for about 2 weeks. Do I know how to do it or what?
On Thursday, I baked my birthday cake. I've been by myself since the evening of that day & pretty much have enjoyed nothing but cake & chips & cheese. The 3 C's. I'm sure that my food choices are strongly reflective of things that have me stressed & what do I do? I emotionally eat. Food is my drug of choice. Oddly though, I know exactly WHAT the things are that are stressing me and when I choose not to deal with it, I try to suppress it with food. Yes, I know that isn't good. That's why I called Seth to see if I could see him to talk it out. I will be seeing him this Thursday and I can't wait.
Pretty much everyone knows I've been unemployed going on 9 months. I'm my worst enemy. I do nothing but think about money, will I have enough, current things that are on my mind, past things I can't do nothing about, my crazy new neighbor, you name it, it's on my mind.
I will be alone the next 5 days so I have time to compile all the things that I need to talk about for Seth. It will be good for me to go. I don't want to talk about some of the things with my friends, I don't really care for their opinions. They just make me feel worse. I've gone back to my practice of holding things in & just pretending everything is ok.
I know I need to exercise more than the whole C25K thing. I just haven't felt it. Probably because I'm all bloated up from chips & cheese hahaha!
Everything isn't all bad though. I'm a new volunteer at my YMCA. I will be greeting members (new & established) in the Wellness Center, seeing if they need help or would like a free orientation with a trainer. A lot of people don't know that they can take advantage of that free orientation. I start this Tuesday. I'm looking forward to it. When I was doing my interview, I found out that Zumba is now offered to those who receive financial aid from the Y at a discount. That means I can take Zumba for a lower price. I'm excited about that & will be starting Zumba this week.
I've had a bit of a business idea. I talked about it with a friend from high school who gave me the idea how to start it free to see if I like it & if I can get a following. I'm calling it Friendly Stranger & if you click on the name, you can check it out. I had the idea of "talking" to others, offering help anonymously. I have been lucky to have my own therapist (Seth) but not everything has that ability. Sometimes we can't talk to friends or family. I have been "blessed" with the ability of people telling me their life stories within minutes of meeting them. So I set something up. Please check it out & pass it along to someone you think could benefit from it.
That's what is going on with me. Monday starts a new week & I'm planning to be focused. I really need to be. There is a possibility I will have some major changes and I need to be prepared.
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